Letting Go

Letting go isn't easy, especially when you blame yourself...but sometimes, it's all you can do. I hope you find what you are looking for...I hope you find that smile i fell for again.

Unexpected

Only reason I made it through today was because of you Nicky. Your my best friend and I have no idea where i'd be without you. 19 hours away and you're the one I can count on. 

It's unexpected...how one thing comes and changes everything. Even more unexpected when you realize it never really came, never really left, it has simply just been. Inside you, apart of you, there. Maybe you never looked hard enough before, or maybe you were trying to see past it...but either way it's apart of you.You realize how much you need it, rely on it, live for it; it becomes such a dominant part of you that when you breathe, when you move, anything at all, is driven by this one thing. Pushing it away is no use. You always always find your way back...even if just for one night and one dream. it eventually becomes all you have left to push you through.

It's Been Awhile...

Just close your eyes
The sun is going down
You'll be alright
No one can hurt you now
Come morning light
You and I'll be safe and sound

--Safe and Sound. Taylor Swift

it's been quite sometime since i've been on here...life's really taken hold of me and made me too busy to think the past few months. Sadly, I hope I can keep it this way. Drama has still found a way to catch me off guard, make me stumble along the path i'm on. Soccer's forever gone...i'm beginning to learn to live without it. I miss my best friend more than ever. Seems like I can't get to the top of this hill i've been on for what feels like quite sometime. 

but i'm back blog world. i'll try to do my best to keep it updated again...forgot what a good outlet it can be.