Unexpected

Only reason I made it through today was because of you Nicky. Your my best friend and I have no idea where i'd be without you. 19 hours away and you're the one I can count on. 

It's unexpected...how one thing comes and changes everything. Even more unexpected when you realize it never really came, never really left, it has simply just been. Inside you, apart of you, there. Maybe you never looked hard enough before, or maybe you were trying to see past it...but either way it's apart of you.You realize how much you need it, rely on it, live for it; it becomes such a dominant part of you that when you breathe, when you move, anything at all, is driven by this one thing. Pushing it away is no use. You always always find your way back...even if just for one night and one dream. it eventually becomes all you have left to push you through.