Serenity

“Sometimes being a friend means mastering the art of timing. There is a time for silence. A time to let go and allow people to hurl themselves into their own destiny. And a time to prepare to pick up the pieces when it's all over.”
--Gloria Naylor

No explanation needed...same story, different day. I miss my best friend and I wish our relationship had never changed. I wish I could have been honest from the get go. Maybe things would be different. Maybe doesn't get me anywhere...Maybe doesn't change anything.

I've found myself turning to the prayer of serenity lately...trying to find answers and an understanding of why my life has gone down the path it has. I never mean to complain or burden anyone with upsetting stories or sad moods...maybe I'm just overreacting about all that's happened or reading into it. Others would probably say my life's not that bad, and I know that countless people are suffering more than myself. Part of me can't help but wonder sometimes though...wonder why it had to be this way, why I feel like everyday is a fight to keep myself together, why i only feel like myself when I'm alone. I'm still learning and I know that God has a reason for everything...my sister and dad tell me that God only gives me more burdens because He knows I can handle it. I can't disagree...but that's putting a lot of faith in me....faith I'm not sure I deserve.