You've made a lasting impression, and if it doesn't feel right that I just can't go on.
I've been sleeping with the lights on so if I wake in the night...your picture is clearly in sight.--The Starting Line, Lasting Impression
I played futsal tonight...it was amazing. I don't care how potentially unsafe it was, how crazy I might be for doing it, or how mad coaches and family might be. I felt alive on the court. The ball at my feet and my mind on the game...it's simply perfect. It's all I want. It was the best therapy for the past few weeks. It gives me a reason to smile..a reason to believe.
This past weekend I got yelled at by a group of girls at a party...the extent being for me to go home because I had no friends. Stupid right? Then i hear that the ring leader sent my roomie a text basically saying I was a downgrade for any guy to be with. A bit extreme on her bitch side. Worst of all...my supposed best friend Crutch stood by and let them yell at me. That hurt the most, especially when he blamed it on me. Let's be honest, if you know me at all or have taken time to read my previous posts you'd know i'm the least confrontational person you are likely to meet. I don't let the words bother me, just with I had a better friend. Seems like I'm back to the Kevin situation all to well. Excuse my bluntness but the pussy seems to always win; friendship is overrated anyways right? Oh, did i mention i got a speeding ticket too? My string of bad luck needs to end...and 2012 needs to help me start anew.
Despite the negative weekend...things are starting to look up. I got to play again, my workouts are amazing, and I'm doing better in classes. Hopefully some other things get better too but that entry may have to wait. Thanksgiving is around the corner too...going to North Carolina again and I'm running in a 5K too. I'm looking forward to seeing the family and having time to just let go for a bit.
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