Win Some Lose Some

definitely had one of my worst afternoons in awhile today...there is a friend of mine, someone i had feelings for at one point, that told me he wanted to be in a relationship today. but i have Nick, and he's all i could ask for so I'm not looking to mess it up...but, i feel terrible. I lost my friend because i made a decision. This guy is never someone I could date no, he sleeps around, smokes and drinks heavily, doesn't have much ambition...but he was always fun to be around; a genuine sweetheart he could make you feel happy on the worst days. He was a friend through some tough days, and now i realize he likes the idea of me. the classic good girl that could push him to be better. only to leave me hurt in the end right? he's really mad at me right now. told me to never bother speaking to him...i had to leave. as much as he doesn't want me there though, i'm still here and still his friend...like always.

i'm not questioning my decision at all. I want Nick, and i'm happy with him. I just wish i didn't have to lose a friend in the process. you win some you lose some...but the people that walk out of your life were never meant to make it to your future.


Love and miss you bestie <3